Its not christmas or Easter Sunday, there was no baptism communion, wedding, or funeral. But for some reason I woke up today, threw my converse shoes, jeans on and went to church!
As I sat there staring at the statues of saints that once haunted me throughout my childhood i allowed my soul to open up, let myself go, and began to cry!
I cried for my sins, my thoughts, my hurt and let it all go!
Im not a holy roller and anyone who knows me knows that I lost hope a long time ago! In myself, people and in above all God. So for me to sit there in this makeshift temple..look up to an invisible man and ask him for his forgivness was out of my character.
I dont want this liberating feeling to end. I am tired of allowing so much negativity in my life, letting people bring me down, giving and not receiving. I deserve better!I dont regret any of my actions, including this one because I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.
I am who I am and nothing will ever change that. If you cant accept me for who I am you don't deserve me. You may not understand me not because I am insane or difficult but because you chose not to get to know me! (ok that was a personal blow). I dont blame you for this but I feel sorry for you! you are missing out on an
awesome FUCKING PERSON!
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