Reconciliation

Sleepless nights, a cars halogen lights these are the thoughts that consume my life
I wake up each morning with a death stick in mouth
Caffeine through my veins and fluexonine in my brain


I try to keep busy but can’t help wondering what you do
I try to ease the pain but I can t stop thinking about you
I step it up a notch
But the emptiness remains
I try to ease the pain
Fuck am I going insane!

Without you in my life I force myself to eat
You were my last supper but this is not a feast
I know you’re tired of the false promises
And hearing that same old tune
But I am not undead I promise to be true
Your flesh is what I crave I’m suffering deep inside
I see your beautiful face the moment I step outside

As I look into your eyes; confident and proud
The radiance you exhume blows my mind
50,000 thoughts come to mind when I think of you
Meditation is not the key I’m in dire need of you!

Now that you are gone half of me is dead
That spark of ecstasy no longer throbs in my head
I never felt this way with anyone before
I’m suffering inside I’m not the man I was once before
You are my precious light, my peace and harmony
I hope one day you’ll see
I’m not part of your past
You are my faith and destiny.